Cross that Road

The purpose of starting now

We have all heard the phrase, ‘I will cross that road when I come to it’. The basic concept is not to worry about what it might come until it comes; that we should live in the present and take care of what we have right now. It is to be a reassuring phrase.

It is also a phrase to stop any momentum. When I think about that phrase, I think about how we leave things for later. About how we postpone what we want to do, because of course, we will always have time. I think about not worrying about the future, yes, a noble idea, but also is an invitation to do nothing, to not take charge, to just let things go.

I have been thinking about getting back to writing for a while. By a while I mean more than 10 years. I always thought I would have more time, that I should focus on what I’m involved with right now. This thinking has led me to stray from what I want for my life.

I don’t want to feel that I’ll have time to worry about things later. I don’t what to feel as if I should let things be. I want to take charge. I want to see things with my own views and say things with my own words. I want to feel life as fully as I possibly can. I don’t want to wait until I get to that road. I want to drive through now, not later. Cross that road results from that feeling.

By taking control of what I want, and what I see for my future, I let go of fears.

I understand now that writing is not about the rest of the world. Writing is about me, writing is for me.

Writing allows me to translate thoughts in ideas, and ideas back into thoughts. Thoughts that come back both more clear and more raw. It is a continued cycle that allows me to take in the world the way is mean to be, and that is the way I choose it to be.